On a nicer note, I basicly dreamt about a kind of goldfather gangster epic.
ironicaly involving pacino and deniro.

hahaha

oh yeh and nailed some chick at the end,cool.

Growth & Realisation

This post isnt a dream nor a nightmare but something i have general thought alot about.


When you are younger you are usualy taught to have manners by your parents or guardian.
e.g. Eat with your mouth shut, dont talk with food in your mouth, dont talk over people, dont swear, dont be racist,hold doors open for people etc etc.

I have allways listened and taken it all onboard. So whilst im not the most polite guy around, i do like to think i have reasonably good manners.

When we get old enough to kind of be our own person we become more aware of people and there personalities. We realise peoples bad trates.

So you go from being carefull, making sure that you have good manners and looking upto all these authorative figures thinking that they are all very polite nice people, to realising that they arent perfect and barely have any manners themselves.

Most parents will teach there kid to not do things that they do or have done themselves, which is a little bit stupid considering kids arent kids forever.

I dont think you should teach a kid not to do something that you do yourself as its false.
you have to set the example.



at this point im not 100% that any of that makes sence, but i know that i feel better.


the whole idea for this was me re-re-re-re-realising that parents are still naive, childish, rude and bitter people too. Even if they choose to think that they are sometimes god like.

No person is perfect.

Birth &obstacle

Lastnight i had a load of dreams but i only briefly remember 1 smal part of 1 and roughly what happened in the 2nd.


The bit i briefly remembera bit of was being down at a rocky beach with a seawall and seeing women trying to give birth in some kind of ritualistic way against the seawall and rocks.

The second dream that i loosely remember is being in some kind of maze that has obstacles all over the place, all of which were like the big brightly coloured foam play equipment in a kids play area. I had to get to what ever was at the other end of the maze by escaping and killing everything that got in my way......and all the things that got in my way were like disney characters,cartoon characters and game characters hahaha. The main one i remember was kind of like a Playing card guard from alice in wonderland mixed with a british Beef eater, i beat him to death with a piece of foam playing equipment i think.haha
i eventualy got to the end of the maze just to find myself walking out of the tunnel at a football match that was just about to start, and then being realy confused at why i was there.

It was all pretty cartoony and reminded me of alice in wonderland so much.

kind of wierd, but i find it pretty funny.

Todays Dream - Stairs & Watching

i dont remember all of it anymore.

but i remember briefly seeing this dark fenced
off area and a woman letting a guy into it.

My dream then carried on back to the usual boring everyday stuff i dream about.
eventualy i got to the dark fenced off area i had seen before and saw the guy being let in by the woman. And she said my friend and i could come in aswell, so we did.
the door behind the fence led up a load of stairs which went around the edge of the building we were in.

for some reason there was 2 extra guys with me and my friend as we walked up the stairs.

i briefly remember one of them falling a few floors and getting hurt, but nothing more came from it.

After going up like 4 or 5 flights of stairs we got to the top of the building and there was a wooden floor around the side of the building against the wall. We walked the pathway towards where ever the women was taking us too, and then she pointed out that a paticular area of the floor was weak and that we should tread litely.

So me and my friend got across it carefully. And then this 1 other guy that was randomly with us from before walked across it, but as i looked back the wood was broken and there was huge gaps.
he jumped across one gap and landed on a plank and then just looked at us hopelessly and stepped forward to his certain death, as if he was scared but had to.
i then watched this guy fall down about 4 floors and land on a wood floor below.
he wasnt dead but he was dying.

....the image of him falling and hitting the ground has stuck with me and has popped into my head a few times during the day.


its realy fucked, and has played on me abit.


wonder what it could mean.